I'm feeling pretty crappy. This is because a week or two ago, I tried out for the school musical. We're doing The Sound of Music. I got a recall for the acting auditions, and for the last week have been waiting on tentorhooks to see if I made it.
So, after school, I went to the place where they were announcing who got a part.
All the major parts were announced, and I wasn't on the list.
I was a bit sad, but felt OK about it.
Then the guy said:
"These are the less major parts, they'll have one or two lines, and no singing. If you're one of these parts, the good thing is you can be in the chorus."
Oh, joy.
"Now, in the movie there's one major postulant, but we've decided to make two. Postulant 1, _________. Postulant 2..."
Then he called out my name.
See, the thing is, if I didn't get a part at all, I could just say to myself that I wasn't right for the parts, and there was always next year.
But being a postulant?
That's the worst thing ever.
If you've seen the movie, you know the scence where these two young nuns go up to the head nun (?), and say "mother, we have sinned" and hold up car parts from the Nazi jeeps?
I'm one of them.
I get to say mother, we have sinned.
It's so unfair. You know what makes it worse?
There's a girl who was really nervous at the auditions, and I lent her my song sheet and was nice to her.
Guess who got a major part?
She totally rubbed it in my face.
I guess I must have looked really downtrodden or something, because she "What's wrong?" and I was like "I play a nun," and she said: "Well at least you got a part."
Like she hadn't got a major part, or anything.
I feel so crappy.